Listening to the Amelie Soundtrack feeling weepy and nostalgic.
Caught in a hollow place of looking back and looking forward.
Not quite present.
Not quite absent.
Blogger hasn't let me upload a photograph for weeks now.
That being said,
Mike and I (mostly Mike) have been working on my Christmas present.
My very own website;
A place to streamline and combine my online presences into one...
archives from my most recent blogs "apples for poppy anne" + "apples with honey"
links to facebook + pinterest
Details to come.
I create for two reasons:
1.) I love the ever elusive challenge of creating something pretty
2.) To make money
Some days it doesn't feel like I accomplish either of those. The truth is that becoming homesteaders costs money. There is always something to buy; tree felling, fixing wood stoves, trailer hitches, feed, building supplies, tools, books in addition to all the requirements of daily life; organic food, organic meat, clothing, winter boots. Of course, it is short term pain for long term gain, but our one income household has taken a beating in the last 6 months.
There are days I wonder why I try to do so many things. There are days I wish I could just concentrate on being a great, present mama. There are days I just can't take another second of the one sided conversations and boredom. There are days I wish I could find the nerve to start a little family photography business to take the pressure off Mike who uses his vacation days to do side work. There are days when oatmeal and toys are enough. There are days when I need to feel productive. There are days I wish I could forget about making money and find ways to save it instead.
There are days I feel like my full time job is doing laundry and peeling clementines.
I am so glad to be home snuggling with my little squishy faces and watching them grow everyday, but my, oh my it is one intense gig. I put the question out to you lovely readers: How do you crafty mama bloggers manage your time? What do you sacrifice in order to make it work? Please share your time management secrets with this weary mama.
go gently + be wonderful